Day 27

L: .4

Nuts. i ate more nuts. i bought more nuts to make a delcisious raw cranberry bar thing and i cracked in to the cashews last night. i laugh becuase my slips before were usually a case of beer. so i'm not gonna be too hard on myself.

i'm sick of taking my drops though. only today thru sunday and i'm done that shit. i'm not really looking forward to eating. it's such a pain in the ass. although while i was waiting for people last night i wanted to stop by wing stop and get some chicken wings.

And alcohol. i dont' really miss it! in fact my friend and i were to seriously tie one on on thanksgiving and themore i thought about it, the more it sounded stupid. what was the point? so i thought and i thought and i thought and BINGO! i booked us two Sacramento River Train tickets complete with a Thanksgiving lunch. Doeasn't that sound totally fun!!! i can't wait.

i'll be able to eat that day too. and i WILL have a glass of wine. or 3.

Day 26

L: .6

not very good seeings how i'm only eating steak & tomatoes for dinner. BUT better than a stall or gain.

tonight i'm having 2 fried eggs and carmelized onions. can't wait. 5 more days of VLCD and i can eat. i'm kinda scared...

Yippee kay-aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

L: 1.2

and down to 149.8! Today I'm starting my new schedule of gettin gup at 5, having coffee, walking Kody, working out, riding my bike to work (well the last two are AFTER i'm done this diet). of course i'm up WAY too early becuase I feel so good and by the image in the mirror i fukcing LOOK so good.

I bought a couple of pants at costco, thinking they'd be tight. one's too big and ones just right. my eyes are still seeing big clothes for me. this is so fricking great. i am so happy. i cannot wait to start working out and getting what's left in shape. NEXT year, after saying this for 12 years, i'm actaully goingto be able to wear a bikini. A BIKINI!!!

Since i'm done with the HCG on Sunday, I'm doing nothing but steak & veggies for dinner. i just want to get off as much as i can before i go low-carb since I'm going out for t'giving. you're supposed to do lowcarb for three weeks after the VLCD; i'm only doing 2.5.

but, of coruse i'll go right back on.

blah blah blah blah....

Day 24

Gain: .2

Again, finished off macadamia nuts last night ( i see my new 'disciplined' self is in full action ) so if that's all i get for punishment, i'm happy.

I ahve to go to a cupcake place today to get my friend Janet a b'day cupcake since it's her birthday tomorrow. HOW am i going to do this without eating one of every one they have? they are beautiful too. and i'm not eating lunch today. maybe i'll eat some cotton.

i went over my friends house last night after she said she had one more pair of big pants left that i could have. (my regular jeans are too big and my other jeans are a TAD too tight. and way outdated) i todl that bitch not to humiliate me since she's tiny. they're a size 6. a 6!!! she laughed at me, wanted more humiliation and told me to try them on anyway.

they went over my thighs, over my ass and were zipped & buttoned. Now there's no way i could wear them becuase as soon as i sat down the button would then become a weapon; but, they went over my thighs, over my ass and were zipped & buttoned.

Day 23

L: .2

i can't even believe i lost THAT much since i cheated so bad last night and ate probably a cup of macadamia nuts. i just couldn't stop!!! They were so good, so creamy & salty and crunchy...

anyway, .8 and i'm in the 140's. this is a slow crawl there i see but only one more week of VLCD. DEFINITELY on the home stretch.

L: chicken & canned spinach (YUM!! no, really...YUM!)
D: steak and canned tomatoes (another YUM - can you tell i'm out of veggies?)

okay. first day back to work after being in training. booo....

day 22

L: .4

i counted wrong...today is day 22 and i'm very very dizzy. i think i'm going to eat a littel more becuase i haven't been eating much in the last few days.

i have 1.1 pounds to go before i'm 149.9 yesterday my size 12's were falling off and just last week those were a bit snug so this is just so amazing. I can't wait to start working out, do yoga, quit smoking and i'm excited to see how i do about being disciplined. i feel really good this time around becuase my life seems so normal. last night i lit another fire, had some more tea and passed out candy (life is VERY cruel sometimes as i have about 5 pounds of snickers, mr. goodbar, reeses pb cups, etc., left.) and just felt good. i turned back all my clocks and was in bed with kody by 9:30.

i get to wake up at 5 feeling good. although i watched an animal cop that made me cry. oh well...

10 more days left (8 on hcg)

day 20

L: .8

all i can say is 1.4 more pounds til i'm 149. 149!!!!! i look really good too. i feel really good; I am glad I'm nearing the end though. i can say for the 2nd round i wasn't so desperate for food this time around. i think becuase after my first round i literally satisified every craving i ever had pretty much as soon as i got OFF that diet. not gonna happen this time. i've got big plans....BIG plans.

d: steak & tomatoes

UPDATE: i just tried on all my 10's and can fit in to half of them! quite a cry from a loose 16.