My HCG Journey

Day 37

2010-02-27T05:51:00.000-08:00

down to 144.6

wow.

i'm now scared to start Phase 3 which is regular low-carb eating. but i've been losing so much near the end i'm fearful to start gaining again. Wedensday i incorporate exercise so hopefully that'll offset the calories i'll be ingesting.

i can now fit in to these skinny-ass size 8 jeans Debby gave me. : ) i look pretty prettttty dang hot for 44.

i woke up at 3am ready to get up but had to force myself to go back to sleep til 5. i'm excited today becuase i get to actually GROCERY SHOP FOR REAL FOOD!!! i love, love, LOVE grocery shopping and i havne't been able to do so for over a month. buying a few ounces of food here and a few ounces of food there does not count.

i also am starting to feel a bit more normal now. maybe it was the HCG that made me feel off becuase i started to feel better yesterday; my first day without hcg. thank GOD for that. i was worried i'd be a weirdo for the rest of my skinny life. : )

i'm back to being gassy again too! yay!! i missed my old friend.

day 31

2010-02-21T11:42:00.001-08:00

I'm not going to go as long as i had planned. a friend of mine said i seemed so "flat" and my best friend concurred. I have zero energy and zero ability to carry on a converstaion. i feel slightly off most of the time. I'm only slightly fearful i won't find my way back.

so next sunday is my last HCG day. i've lost, so far, 21.4 pounds. the total overall since i found HCG is 35.4 pounds. wow. almost 40 pounds. as of today, i'm the lowest i've weighed in well over 5 years. so every ounce i lose from here til sunday is a major slice of cake. mmmm...caaaake....

if i got to 140 by sunday i hope that 6.6 comes right off my belly. thats' really the only place i'm holding on to the last bit of fat.

i think why i feel so weird and slightly off is becuase all my fat has stored poison in it from years of alcohol and food abuse. THAT'S what my body is currently eating.

yuk.

Not super happy

2010-02-20T05:43:00.000-08:00

for the last five days i've been in the 148's. so i guess my revised goal is to hit 140. i've got 14 days to lose 8.4 pounds. i SHOULD be able to do that....at least i better.

HAPPY DANCE...HAPPY DANCE!!!

2010-02-17T06:01:00.000-08:00

I don't know how i did it but i lost 1.4 pounds OVER NIGHT!

only .6 to go until i'm at my lowest last HCG weight. and then i quit and ate like a pig and gained half of it back. not this time, my friend(s). Not this time.

148.2

Mother fucker.

2010-02-15T06:03:00.001-08:00

gain .02

why can't i be like 148 and gain .02??? i can't get out of these 150s!!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!!!

2010-02-14T05:44:00.000-08:00

i'm 150.2 today!!! another .8 loss!!!!! only .3 more and i'm in the 140s.

at first when i got on the scale i thought i gained .2 becuase yesterday i was 151. so wehn i saw the .2 i was bummed...then i realized not so!

i ate a macadamia nut yesterday too! yes. just one.

i don't think i'll make my goal of 135 this round becuase i have 17 days left to lose 15.2 pounds and that's a bit hard seeings how i'll be near my goal weight anyway. it's harder to lose the closer you get. but if i get to 140 i won't cry too hard. i'm sure i'm going to lose weight doing the low carb thing too. you're not supposed to lose weight in phase 3 but i think that's if you're doing low cal and when i'm on low carb i do NOT do low cal. can you say cup o'mayonnaise a day? I knew you could.

I'm excited still....

Day 22

2010-02-12T07:08:00.000-08:00

down .4

only 1.9 pounds to go til i'm in a new decade. i look pretty good too : )

crap

2010-02-11T06:38:00.001-08:00

i'm getting frustrated. over the last 5 days i've only lost .6 pounds. that included a gain of .4 and i hardly ate anything yesterday.

i guess it's better than gaining. i was hoping to get to 149 by sunday and i still might but whatever.

i have not cheated not ONE iota. i'm drinking a ton of water, taking my vitamins and doing very light calisthenics. it actaully could be the calisthenics but i'm not going to stop doing those. this diet says even if the scale hardly moves, you're still losing inches. and by god my stomach no longer gets in the way of my sleep so that's all good.

today would have been the day my hypo was reset but since i cheated so bad i'm counting from only two days ago and in 19 days i'll consider that part done.

i feel pretty good especially without alcohol in my system. i feel happier, more productive and healthier. course i'm still smoking like a chimney but i decided i'll quit THAT on 2/28. that's a sunday and that's near the last day of this protocol so it's a really good time to do it.

yeah...thats' a plan.

Day 19

2010-02-09T06:23:00.000-08:00

well, i've turned over another leaf. I've eaten nuts for the last 4 days. and not just 3 or 7. but 37. each. cashews and macadamia nuts. and i've had cream in my coffee. although i'm still losing (except this morning...only a .4 gain and tha'ts not bad considering) i've decided enough is enough. I told myself i was going to DO this and do this right. no more messing around becuase if i don't do this round right, i'm just going to see how fat i can get.

So today, no more cream in my coffee and no more nuts i've "hidden" in my car trunk (which, by the way, didn't fool me becuse i was in my garage about 7 times last night). By the end of february, exactly, i'll be at the 21 day mark and that's the magic day your hypo has been reset. i have 3 more days of HCG in to march and then off hcg, 3 more days of VLCD and by sunday, i can eat low carb.

I pray by then i'll be 135 or even lower. but if not, that's my plan. That's 18 pounds in 28 days and that's highly doable. unless 135 is too low but at 5'6 i doubt it. and believe it or not, i'm looking forward to working out. I've decided as of yesterday to do light calisthenics for the remainder of this round. i did about 50 sit ups, bicep curls, tricep dips ,some shoulder & back work and some lunges. that should get my muscles prepped for my workouts to come.

i'm excited. : )

Day 16

2010-02-06T06:12:00.000-08:00

I'm down 13.6 pounds since i started. i decided, if i'm not down to 135 by the end of feb i'll go one more week in to march and then stop. do my low-carb for 3 FULL weeks and on April fools day i can introduce good carbs. including wine. yay! (i pray, pray, PRAY in moderation)

two night ago i ate about 12 pecans and last night i ate about a fat-ass handful of macadamia nuts. WHY did i buy those damn things!!! actaully, i bought them becuase i'm going to incorporate a raw meal or two during my low carb days and eventually in mylife.

oh and despite my crazy nut cheats i lost a pound. but i ain't doing that today. or for the remainder of this diet...that was fun, i enjoyed it but gotta get back on track.

i've also decided to quit smoking. it was a good crutch to help me while i'm without alcohol for two weeks but that's enough. i only have one left. i could cry. i love smoking. but i'm going to start running in april and i cannot afford to have smoked-out lungs. it's going to be hard enough just to run my new lithe body. : )

day 13

2010-02-03T05:28:00.000-08:00

i had a hard day yesterday. i was pms'y and felt unimportant. i had to stay late at work too and the guys noticed my red eyes and nose but didn't say anything. that's why i love working with guys.

so i wasn't really hungry when i got home but i smoked two cigarettes and felt better. i had burnt steak and broiled tomatoes. i've been struggling with that bag of pecans in my kitchen but i really do tell myself there's NO point. after you've eaten 10, then what? you have to prolong the diet? maybe just go off? know that you'll have to start over in a few more months? Hell no. i'm not stopping this HCG round til i'm 135. period.

and today i lost close to a pound. only 21.8 more to go. i'll be there by the end of the month and that's worth not cheating for...

day 12

2010-02-02T06:16:00.000-08:00

i'm pretty proud of myself for my mentality on this round. I'm not making a big deal out of it. I'm not planning my meals for when i'm off this diet. i'm just appreciating the cleaness of the eating and the ease of meal planning. and the fact that i can't exercise. : )

I've lost 11 pounds. i started putting 1T of cream in each 8oz cup of coffee and adding yummy sugar-free syrup to make those more tolerable. i just CANNOT drink black coffee and i don't like the idea of giving it up while i'm on this diet. however, i would have if i gained again this a.m. like i did yesterday when i started the cream.

i'm shrinking like i did the first round. by the end of february i shoud be just shy of my goal weight. I'll continue on until i am at my goal weight and then do low-carb for the FULL 3 weeks unlike every other time i've done this diet. even though i'm a major alcohol lover, i'm also omitting that until i'm in a full work-out regime which should be set by May.

Who am i?

2010-01-29T06:01:00.001-08:00

aaaaaaaand the pooping the pants phase begins....

day 5

2010-01-27T05:51:00.000-08:00

i'm not getting too in to this phase becuase i'm tired of being pumped up only to let myself down. i'm JUST as thankful i'm on it; just trying not to make a big deal of it so time will pass normally.

i actaully lost a little over a pound on loading days but sunday i had a fat ass b'fast and white russians and cream soup for dinner. had it been a normal loading day i probably would have stayed even or gained a bit.

i'm slightly hungry this round but it's okay. really...after those loading days if i never saw food again, i think i'd be okay. ME!!! I'm saying that!

anyway, i think i'm gonna take friday off and go to tahoe. i need some snow and one armed bandit time.

Here I am agaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaain!

2010-01-22T08:18:00.000-08:00

Okay. this is fucking IT! This is my LAST time doing HCG and i'm going to take it totally serious. i mean it.

the first round was amazing. i was 182 and lost 24 pounds. gained back 10. went on homeopathic HCG (which there is no such thing) lost another 20 (becuase of 400 calories a day) and gained back a litttle more than 10.

i'm going to the clinic today to get REAL hcg and i'm going to stay on it for 40 days and actaully stick to the low carb for the 3 weeks that follow unlike the first two phases. then i'm going to stay sober for 2 months following to really clean out my body and give my liver a WELL needed rest.

im excited.

2009-12-06T15:09:00.000-08:00

2009-12-06T14:26:00.000-08:00

who knows?

2009-11-08T06:28:00.001-08:00

Well i blew it on Friday. My wants sit in the pit of my stomach and gnaw until they're met.

i had a few cocktails with Debby Friday night. I did really well and honestly it wasn't fun. i was bored, drinking, smoking and wondering what the hell i was doing. i actaully ended up putting debby to bed, going to bed myself and woke up with underwear on so i didn't over do it.

I stopped the HCG and am now on low-carb til i lose the last 10 pounds (would have been 7 but all the food i ate yesterday -albeit all food i'm allowed just in too large of portions- I put on 3 pounds)

Today i'm going to eat really light andtomorrow i'm riding my bike in as exercise will be my new obsession. it has to be...i'll shrink even more if i work out steadily. and that's what i want...a firm body. i'm going to have a better body now than i ever did in my 20's.

let's do it!

Day 27

2009-11-06T05:29:00.000-08:00

L: .4

Nuts. i ate more nuts. i bought more nuts to make a delcisious raw cranberry bar thing and i cracked in to the cashews last night. i laugh becuase my slips before were usually a case of beer. so i'm not gonna be too hard on myself.

i'm sick of taking my drops though. only today thru sunday and i'm done that shit. i'm not really looking forward to eating. it's such a pain in the ass. although while i was waiting for people last night i wanted to stop by wing stop and get some chicken wings.

And alcohol. i dont' really miss it! in fact my friend and i were to seriously tie one on on thanksgiving and themore i thought about it, the more it sounded stupid. what was the point? so i thought and i thought and i thought and BINGO! i booked us two Sacramento River Train tickets complete with a Thanksgiving lunch. Doeasn't that sound totally fun!!! i can't wait.

i'll be able to eat that day too. and i WILL have a glass of wine. or 3.

Day 26

2009-11-05T04:58:00.001-08:00

L: .6

not very good seeings how i'm only eating steak & tomatoes for dinner. BUT better than a stall or gain.

tonight i'm having 2 fried eggs and carmelized onions. can't wait. 5 more days of VLCD and i can eat. i'm kinda scared...

Yippee kay-aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-04T04:52:00.000-08:00

L: 1.2

and down to 149.8! Today I'm starting my new schedule of gettin gup at 5, having coffee, walking Kody, working out, riding my bike to work (well the last two are AFTER i'm done this diet). of course i'm up WAY too early becuase I feel so good and by the image in the mirror i fukcing LOOK so good.

I bought a couple of pants at costco, thinking they'd be tight. one's too big and ones just right. my eyes are still seeing big clothes for me. this is so fricking great. i am so happy. i cannot wait to start working out and getting what's left in shape. NEXT year, after saying this for 12 years, i'm actaully goingto be able to wear a bikini. A BIKINI!!!

Since i'm done with the HCG on Sunday, I'm doing nothing but steak & veggies for dinner. i just want to get off as much as i can before i go low-carb since I'm going out for t'giving. you're supposed to do lowcarb for three weeks after the VLCD; i'm only doing 2.5.

but, of coruse i'll go right back on.

blah blah blah blah....

Day 24

2009-11-03T05:16:00.000-08:00

Gain: .2

Again, finished off macadamia nuts last night ( i see my new 'disciplined' self is in full action ) so if that's all i get for punishment, i'm happy.

I ahve to go to a cupcake place today to get my friend Janet a b'day cupcake since it's her birthday tomorrow. HOW am i going to do this without eating one of every one they have? they are beautiful too. and i'm not eating lunch today. maybe i'll eat some cotton.

i went over my friends house last night after she said she had one more pair of big pants left that i could have. (my regular jeans are too big and my other jeans are a TAD too tight. and way outdated) i todl that bitch not to humiliate me since she's tiny. they're a size 6. a 6!!! she laughed at me, wanted more humiliation and told me to try them on anyway.

they went over my thighs, over my ass and were zipped & buttoned. Now there's no way i could wear them becuase as soon as i sat down the button would then become a weapon; but, they went over my thighs, over my ass and were zipped & buttoned.

Day 23

2009-11-02T05:16:00.000-08:00

L: .2

i can't even believe i lost THAT much since i cheated so bad last night and ate probably a cup of macadamia nuts. i just couldn't stop!!! They were so good, so creamy & salty and crunchy...

anyway, .8 and i'm in the 140's. this is a slow crawl there i see but only one more week of VLCD. DEFINITELY on the home stretch.

L: chicken & canned spinach (YUM!! no, really...YUM!)
D: steak and canned tomatoes (another YUM - can you tell i'm out of veggies?)

okay. first day back to work after being in training. booo....

day 22

2009-11-01T06:31:00.000-08:00

L: .4

i counted wrong...today is day 22 and i'm very very dizzy. i think i'm going to eat a littel more becuase i haven't been eating much in the last few days.

i have 1.1 pounds to go before i'm 149.9 yesterday my size 12's were falling off and just last week those were a bit snug so this is just so amazing. I can't wait to start working out, do yoga, quit smoking and i'm excited to see how i do about being disciplined. i feel really good this time around becuase my life seems so normal. last night i lit another fire, had some more tea and passed out candy (life is VERY cruel sometimes as i have about 5 pounds of snickers, mr. goodbar, reeses pb cups, etc., left.) and just felt good. i turned back all my clocks and was in bed with kody by 9:30.

i get to wake up at 5 feeling good. although i watched an animal cop that made me cry. oh well...

10 more days left (8 on hcg)

day 20

2009-10-31T05:12:00.000-07:00

L: .8

all i can say is 1.4 more pounds til i'm 149. 149!!!!! i look really good too. i feel really good; I am glad I'm nearing the end though. i can say for the 2nd round i wasn't so desperate for food this time around. i think becuase after my first round i literally satisified every craving i ever had pretty much as soon as i got OFF that diet. not gonna happen this time. i've got big plans....BIG plans.

d: steak & tomatoes

UPDATE: i just tried on all my 10's and can fit in to half of them! quite a cry from a loose 16.

Day 19

2009-10-30T05:00:00.001-07:00

L: 1 pound exactly

pretty awesome seeings how i ate 10 macadamia nuts yesterday.

L: chicken salad
D: fried egg & carmelized onions

not much to report. i'm getting tired of this diet but i only have 11 more days to go. and THEN where will i be...in the scary world of real food, that's where. but also i have 2.2 pounds to go til i'm in the 140's. i haven't seen those numbers in a few years. i sure missed them.

my first night out as a babe will be thanksgiving day. debby and i decided to forgo family shit and bike around town hitting all the "lonely" bars. she even told megan, when asked if they could do something Friday following, "No. i'm going to be hungover and watching movies all day" hahaha...she NEVER says stuff like that to her. but it's our first day partying after 30+ days of sobriety. we are going to start by having one of debby's awesome turkey, stuffing, cranberry sandwhichs with milk FOLLWED by a pumpkin spice martini...that way we'll have food in our stomachs so we don't get too hammered.

meh...we'll probably be in bed by 5.

Day 18 - modified steak day

2009-10-29T05:25:00.000-07:00

L: 1.6 pounds

I didn't eat anything all day and ahd 3.5 ounces of steak and 3.5 ounces of tomatoes. that's the modified part. i cannot believe i'm still in the 150's! i look and feel so damn thin! it's not like i'm working out and gaining muscle either. i have such a weird body.

i took a bag of cheezits from trainig today. i'm like a squirrel preparing for when i get OFF this famine : )

actaully, no. i won't do waht i did the last time i got off this round. which was eat like a fucking pig. no, no no....as incentive, i think i'll start dating as SOON as i'm done this diet and have squeezed in some workout time. nothing makes me feel more unsexy than a lazy body.

but nothing makes me feel more sexy than a body i've been working on!

i am on day 18 so 3 more days and my hypo has been reset. then i'm single digits til i'm done. yessa baby... : )

#$%^&*

2009-10-28T05:38:00.001-07:00

son of a cocksuckmotherfuck. that's THREE days at the same weight. i better be losing inches.

i think i'll skip lunch and just have dinner tonight. which is hard becuase training has hostess cupcakes & dingdongs, cheezits, bbq lays, rice krispie treats, pop tarts, nutter butters, etc., all for free. i'd take a phentermine but i've been so weird lately i'm not sure i could take a phentermine and sit in fricking training all day.

no.

Day 16

2009-10-27T05:55:00.000-07:00

poopy. no loss.

those macadamia nuts are reeeeeeeeeally punishing me. but they were SO good.

L: cottage cheese & tomatoes
d: fish / onions

Totals since i found & started HCG in August:

(these are losses in inches)

Waist: 5"
Hips: 4"
Thighs: 2.5"
Arms: .75"
Bust: .5" (phew!)

and weight loss as of today: 26.2 pounds.

i only have 14 days left. i better fucking lose a pound a day.

day 15

2009-10-26T05:25:00.000-07:00

G: .04

My fault i totally mowed on some macadamia nuts last night. i orignally had 3 halves and then went nuts (oooh...didn't even mean to do that) and had probably less than 1/2 cup. so very bad. of course i have a bag of ruffles and fritos so it coulda been worse.

i have training all week. i'm hoping that'll make the diet easier. i'm starting to get in the mood to eat but i am doing so friggin fantastic i'm not considering quitting.

i'm halfway there.

Day 14

2009-10-25T05:27:00.000-07:00

L: .04

meh...

L: filet mignon / tomatoes (my FAV!)
D: a fabulous chinese chicken salad made by my friend debby (a tiiiiiiiiny bit of protocol)

i'm doing pretty good hunger-wise on this diet. yesterday we went to apple hill and they had a blackberry, sour-cream apply pie. now...i'm not a big pie eater but i wanted to eat this entire pie in one sitting.

instead i had a diet pepsi.

i'm one day away from halfway there so if you're climbing a mountain, tomorrow i'll be on my way down.

Day 13

2009-10-24T05:17:00.000-07:00

L: 1.2

L: taco salad

i was really depressed yesterday and wasn't even hungry for dinner, if you can believe that. hence the big loss.

i had a dream we were having a potluck and i ate a bunch of delicious cookies and i was like "SHIT! How could i forget i'm on this diet!!" then i ate more.

yuesterday i wished i was a full-fledged volunteer because i would have gone to the spca and sat in a few kennels with some dogs that were probably pretty sad too. maybe i'm lonely. it's been a while since i've had love in my life. i'm usually pretty good without it. maybe it's the 250 calories i ate yesterday. whatever it is, i'm crying now.

i better look hot in two weeks.

day 12

2009-10-23T05:41:00.000-07:00

L: .08

Almost a pound. i look way thinner than i have in a while though. i bought some cute-ass jeans the other day. they don't quite fit but they will by next week. isn't that the greatest diet in the world when you can say that? not "in a few months from now" or even "next month" but NEXT WEEK!

L: chicken/asparagas
D: panfried fish & panfriend onions. pretty dang good

i'm off work for the next 3 days. life is always better out of work but the diet is easier too. i can distract myself with shit i like when i'm hungry. i think i'll take a phentermine today and have some FUN! woo hooooo...me loves drugs!

Day 11

2009-10-22T05:23:00.001-07:00

L: 1.0

ayeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeah! it's always good to lose in full increments.

L: taco salad
D: steak & tomatoes

not much to report. i did 75 situps, 20 triceps, 20 chest press, 20 chest curls, 40 side bends. you're not supposed to exercise but i think they mean seriuos aerobics. calisthenics, although got my heart rate up but only for 15 minutes, should be gentle enough to do. i'm trying to prepare my body for working out in november.

it's helping that i have training today and yesterday. and off tomorrow. yay!

day 10

2009-10-21T05:17:00.000-07:00

meh. L - .06

L: fish & cabbage - again...that sounds SO gross but it's REALLY good!
D: filet mignon & tomatoes - this was a gourmet meal. i ain't kiddin.

nothing to talk about really. i'm frustrated at the little losses but it's SO better than a stall or a gain so i should shut up. i'm just so chubbyish that i'm dying to lose 20 pounds. i look pretty good and i'm feeling a tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiny bit sexy but not enough to wear a tube top. hahah..that was funny.

i'm tired. i would LOVE to take today & tomorrow off. i'm already taking firday off. i can't stand the thought of working a full week.

phew! day 9

2009-10-20T05:33:00.000-07:00

L: .08

not super great but better than a gain.

L: chicken / asparagas (mmm...smelly pee)
D: one egg one egg white / sauteed onion

Time is dragging this time but i see lots of people feel that way on their subsequent rounds. but at least this time i'm not crazily fantasizing about food. becuase i KNOW I'll be able to eat soon and, meh...it ain't that big of a deal. we had plans for the 2nd saturday (an art show downtown every 2nd saturday of the month) and i might not be ready to paarteh then. but that's okay. there's lots of us going so i could be the designated driver. believe it or not, i've done it before. in my one million and two thoughts yesterday i thought 'maybe i'll just finish early and do another round' followed quickly by 'HEEEELL NO!' I just want to be done with this diet so i can start a new life as a workout queen. winter is the BEST time to get in to taht mode becuase ther'es not much else to do.

tonight i'm going to a yoga class. those i can do for now, it'll start a pattern and i'll be rarin' to go in a month.

yay!

Poop - day 8

2009-10-19T05:31:00.000-07:00

G: .02

I did pretty good yesterday. I drank a big diet coke and ate a potato chip that i spit out. gross i know but i wanted the sensation of a crunchy salty potato chip in my mouth. could THAT be the reason for the gain? anway, i won't do that again...i can't get away with SHIT!

L: flattened salted rosemary chicken, roasted asparagas
D: taco salad

i was really weak yesterday. i think i'm not eating enough becuase i don't eat the fruit or the melba toast. i have lunch & dinner and that's it. i did have like 5 ounces of veggies for dinner so maybe that's the problem. i'll go back to my normal way of eating.

oh. and i DO know things fluctuate, i just didn't think so early in the game.

day 8

2009-10-18T06:31:00.001-07:00

L: .08

uh oh. less than a pound. but barely.

I was reading a blog from someone who's been doing hcg for over a year now. some of her "cheats" were a DONUT! a sliver of cheesecake, fries, beer... i was like did i get the message wrong that you cannot cheat on this diet??? it takes about 3 days to recover from a cheat. no thanks.

L: Fish and half rotten celery
d: Pepper-crusted filet mignon over carmelized onions.

lots and lots of tea. hey! i had no coffee yesterday! oh well...will make up for it today.

Day 6

2009-10-17T05:11:00.000-07:00

Hoooraaaaah! L - 1.2

L: chicken & cabbage
D: taco salad with homemade salsa

I sent it out to the universe to be 160 or less and now i'm 159.8. The way this is going, i'll only have to be on this for 30 days instaed of the 45 that i planned. i can't believe i'm going to say this, but i don't want to get TOO thin. i likes me some booty; i just gots to firm it up!

Mmmm....i'm drinking english breakfast tea with cream & "sugar"...it's like dessert.

Day 5

2009-10-16T06:39:00.000-07:00

L: 1.8 pounds WHOA!!! and YAY!!!

B: coffee/tea/more coffee
L: fish & radishes (Mmmm....NOT!)
D: rare steak & cukes (mmm...YES!)

i have 5 pounds to go before i get down to the weight i was at at the end of my LAST protocol.

Because, you see, i'm a food whore. and when i went OFF this diet the first time, i just couldn't WAIT WAIT WAIT to eat. so i did pretty good the first 3 days and the remaining days were like frickin' load days until i started Round 2. so to have that LITTLE of a gain when i ate & drank like royalty, is not bad.

I went to Elixir after work to see the bartender i told this diet about. she only did it for 15 days and then her boyfriend had a surprise anniversary party for her and she ate & drank and never looked back. i asked her how much weight she lost in those 15 days and she said 15 pounds. amazing. anyway, she says she's back on it - we'll see.

this is not an easy diet, by the way. YOu think "Oh it's only a month" but when you're waiting for each day to pass you're more like "Day Oooooooooone" "Day Twwwwwwoooooooooooooooooooooo" "Day threeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee" GOD HURRY UP! But i do try to remember i could, indeed, be eating like i do and where would i be? getting more & more miserable every day. feeling more & more unattractive, uncomfortable and unhealthy. So after this round, i will NOT do what i did on the first round. and i know why i did what i did on the first round becuase i KNEW i'd be doing another round. I'm smart like that.

I plan on working out every single day. I'm just going to do everything to make my life full. Run, Yoga, meditate, party, smoke, vegetarian, volunteer - PHEW - in order to do the things i'm addicted to, i have to do the things that keep me healthy.

i'm either brilliant or very sick.

Day 4

2009-10-15T05:07:00.001-07:00

L - 1.2

b: coffee & tea
L: fish & cabbage (Sounds gross, but good)
d: turkey & lettuce & salsa (sounds good but gross)

We had a friggin potluck at work yesterday. THOSE are my favorite things next to buffets because i am a bit of a food whore, hence, why i'm bloggin this blog. Kody and i are SO alike

they had greasy grubbin pizza, pastas, marie callendar banana cream pie, shiny chocolate chewy cookies (any cookie that's shiny is going to be amazing), chips, dips and yucky salads. i sat with my coworkres and boss and chatted with them while i ate my cabbage & fish. they're such pushers! i told them when i turn sideways and you can't see me THEN i'll eat potlucks.

i was supposed to do yoga last night but i'm just shit at night. i did finally clean my kitchen and put away my clean clothes that have been out since last week. i wish i could go to work at 10 becuase i'm up at 5 and would have 4 hours to do this kinda shit.

well. off for a walk. only 41 more days to go!

day 3

2009-10-14T05:57:00.000-07:00

L: 2.0

Lunch: ground turkey / lettuce
Dinner: fish / spinach
snack: apple / tea / pickles

I'm pms'y so i was really hungry yetserday. today we're having a potluck at work; i'm taking a phentermine.

last night during my sleep i slammed my teeth together 3 times and it woke me up every time. i need a mouth guard.

I'm not overly doing this round becuase i'm going to be on it for 45 days. i only need to lose 25 pounds ad that will be easily accomplished in that time. SO, that being said, i'm taking more liberties like cream in my coffee, braggs liquid amino, ground turkey, etc....

also, when i'm done this diet i'm going back to vegetarian. there's simply no reason to eat meat (except it's fricking delicious) and if i'm going to be working at the SPCA, i need to stop so i can badger others about it....: ) nothing like an "Ex" anything!

well i suck

2009-10-07T07:13:00.000-07:00

i can't do anything unless it's black & white.

SO, starting my HCG staurday becuase you absolutely cannot cheat or you've wasted your time & money. so TODAY i'm taking the boys to get thai food...yum!

Poopy

2009-10-06T06:52:00.000-07:00

i need to poopie. for some reason i have not 'been there'. AND i'm taking fiber tablets and all my stupid pills and everything! i/m about ready to have a morning bud and a smoke. that works EVERY time.

i did pretty good yesterday. i was supposed to have two salads but i can barely squeeze down one. i did the trampoline and weights and the 45 minute walk. Ate what i was supposed to eat (except the addition of the deLICIOUS cinnamon toast) and went to bed later than 8pm (i get too much sleep - GOD i love being child-free).

i'm not good with such a free diet but this is not a diet anyway. i'm just supposed to eat all organic food, do the gay things like stay away from a/c, flourescent lights, listen to calm CD's, wear electromagnetic jewelry and the not so gay things like meditate, yoga, drink water, etc...i'll do this for two weeks and then my hcg for 30 days and hopefully i'll FINALLY, after 15 years!! be in the 130's.

CHANGE OF plans

2009-10-05T07:09:00.000-07:00

I've decided to do two weeks of cleansing before my 30 day HCG. you're supposed to do a 30 day cleanse but i'm afraid my hcg won't last that long.

i'm looking forward to cleaning out my body and my mind. janet's gonna withdraw worse than me. she's never seen me say i'm not going to drink and i don't actaully drink so this will be interesting.

anyway, not a good start on the first day becuae i could NOT get out of bed. my room was freezing and my bed was warm so you do the math. but we took a 30 minute walk after i popped all my pills and now i'm windig down before going to work. i have to lift weights and sit in saunas so tnoight i'll go to the gym and do that. yay.

Round 2 - Phase 1 - Pre-day

2009-10-02T11:33:00.001-07:00

I start my HCG again tomorrow. this time i ordered off the internet so i hope it works just as well. i really have about 25 more pounds to lose and then i'll be as thin as i probably can be. after i'm done with this last round, i'm going to become an iron athlete. : )

update: change of plans...i'm going to do two weeks of preparation before i do my 500 calorie thing. i have to get tons of massages (drat), colonics (ew), eat well, meditate, walk, yoga, etc., to get my body ready to lose weight. i have gained back about 6 pounds since my last diet day which isn't TOO bad considering...but i feel kinda shitty, mentally and physically. this will be the first step in my new life.

world....WATCH OUT!

Round 2 - Phase 1 - Pre-day

2009-10-02T11:33:00.000-07:00

oh the irony...

2009-08-26T07:39:00.000-07:00

i was TOTALLY not hungry this morning. i did have my coffee with cream and that was pretty magnificent.

did some work from home and took kody on a walk and THEN made my first meal. Huevos Rancheros. I really could taste every flavor: the carmelized onions, chiles, sour cream, cheddar cheese, egg, butter, salsa, green onion...oh my. and Kody is SUPER happy i'm back to normal eating becuae his plate-lickin's is about to get better.

So i'm done blogging about my HCG journey...the rest will be cake walk becuase i've set a new path for myself. if i do another round, it'll be on the Oktoberfest weekend. but i only have 15 more pounds to go til my goal weight so i'm not sure that's needed.

thanks for the encouragment and comments along the way...it helped me get here. : )

Last day of VLCD

2009-08-25T05:25:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i gained .02 and today i lost .04. thank GOD! i cannot afford to blow this diet and you really don't have many options if you start gaining weight. it's not like you can starve yourself to lose weight gained becuase it puts you in to starvation mode and then you'll hold on to weight.

anyway, janet and i went to whole foods yesterday and i had a blast...rich creams, cheeses, veggies, etc...tomorrow i get to eat. for b'fast i'm having huevos rancheros (without the delcious crunchy corn tortilla) and coffee with cream..

okay...off t take the beast for a walk...

Day 30!

2009-08-23T06:23:00.001-07:00

i'm done with HCG...DONE! (at least this round) and my final weight loss???

24.4 pounds!!!

its been an interesting 30 days. i struggled with hunger most times in the first two weeks. I was VERY weak. Couldn't even climb a flight of stairs without my legs hurting. I had the runs 4 times (pretty) and then constipation the others.

for me, i cut out fruit after 12 or so days. i don't like fruit anyway, so that wasn't hard. i ate pretty simple meals. i also added ground beef which is a no-no but it didnt' stall my weight loss.

i'll do suzanne somers for the next month, and if my weight loss isn't moving, i'll gorge and do another 3 weeks on releana.

as hard as this diet was, in a way, it is simply amazing. it's perfect for someone like me who's impatient and wants weight gone in a month. hey! it was!!!

day 28

2009-08-21T07:44:00.001-07:00

down .02

tomorrow is my last day for HCG and can i get an AMEN!?! all i really want is coffee with cream. and mayonnaise.

and cheeseandporkandsausageandbrusselssproutsandclamdipandartichokesandcerealandbutter
andceleryrootmashwithgobsofbutterandadietsodaandeggsandmorecheese....etc.,etc.

i'm glad i made it in to my 150's. now, according to the diet, if i do it right, i won't ever hit 160. so i'm doin' it right...

FINALLY!~ Day 27

2009-08-20T06:17:00.000-07:00

i almost gave up yesterday. relally...26 days and 20 pounds was enough for me and i only had about a teaspoon left of hcg so the thought of continuing on my VLCD until 3 days sounded so good. But my ex who hates to see me fat encouraged me to move on : ) hahahah....

AND i'm 159 today. which means goodbye 160's forever. i had an ocular migraine yesterday that really knocked me out. i had to leave my brande new job early for it...and my vision was weird fora bout 3 hours which my doctor couldn't explain and that's alwasy scary. i ate early becuae i was really hungry and then my vision went back to normal. i think my BODY is tired of this diet too.

well. i'm almost done. today's my last day at work befor the weekend so i can do it. my frineds coming back from europe and she wants to go to the casino saturday. i'm not sure i have the energy for taht...we'll see. : )

tata.

#$%^& - Day 26

2009-08-19T05:27:00.000-07:00

160.2

am i EVER going to hit 159 before i'm done?? which is soon?

i didn't eat my protein last night. that could be the problem. but we all went swimming and htat was kinda fun. i gotta go to work. maybe THAT'S what keeps my weight on.

oh well...day 25

2009-08-18T05:27:00.001-07:00

.02 pounds up. i am going to start any day now so that's GOTTA be it because last night i was looking for my belly and could NOT find it.

Day 24

2009-08-17T05:23:00.000-07:00

I felt like I gained yesterday so a loss of .04 is okay with me.

i actually got sick of tea yesterday and went back to water. i should be starting my period this week so the fact that i'm losing anything is kind of a miracle. i'm HIGHLY looking forward to running out of my HCG now...funny becuase last week i was hoping to just get a little more. i'm sick of eating somewhat boring food and am looking forward to cooking masterpieces again. masterpieces that are amazing and on my diet.

i'm dragging today which tells me one thing; i dno't like my job. : ( i had such high hopes for this position. oh well. i'm still 100% grateful to be back in sac. THAT is a fact.

day 23

2009-08-16T06:40:00.001-07:00

not one ounce. still in the 160s. better than gaining!

whoa....TOTAL shock.

2009-08-15T05:26:00.000-07:00

i lost 2 pounds! i'm .9 pounds away from saying goodbye to the 160's!!!

i was leery of my weigh-in today beucase yesterday i had the most DELICIOUS hamburger salad. which was mixed with THREE vegetables (you're only allowed one type of veggie per meal) I sauteed hamburger with 1T of onion, chopped up some farm fresh to you lettuce and tomato and mixed them all up. it was yummy. THEN i had 6 glasses of a crystal light type drink (another no-no) by the pool so i really went off the suggested course. glad i did! hahaha...

so today is major chore day. and a very simple food day: fish, chicken, veggies. sunday i'm having that taco salad again. cna't wait!

Day 21

2009-08-14T04:13:00.000-07:00

I'm almost out of HCG but i don't care...i'm kinda ready to be off this diet and eat good food. the phentermine worked GREAT the first day, not so great yesterday but work probably brought me down. i hate working. which is why today is the first day of my new life...i'm scared to death but I don't care about THAT either becuae i'm doing it anyway. My life wno't change unless I change it.

anyway, this blog is about the diet to which i lost 1.2 pounds. cutting out the fruit is making the difference and thank God that's easy for me becuae i'm not particularly fond of fruit anyway.

god. i just got a whiff of my breath...disGUSTing. this diet makes your mouth stink.

so i've got tons to do today including looking at my first house!! so i've got to get my ducks lined in a row and lay a good foundation to make things come my way. and i've got to get just a little more food for the week. then i'm DONE!

oh. and i'm not blowing it at the fiar : ( that makes me VEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERY sad but i have to be good. i've come this far, i ain't blowing it for a corndog. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah......

Day 20

2009-08-13T05:14:00.001-07:00

...and down 1.6 pounds. i was hping to be somewhere near the 150 range when this is over but i'm not sure that's going to happen. i only have a little bit of HCG left. it was suppsed to last 30 days but that's not the case. i'm hoping my clinic has little bottles available but i doubt it. i'm getting weighed & measured tonight. i'm excited because i have a lot of questions...i'd like to let my hair down for the fair on 8/29 but if it undoes what i've done, it's not worth it.

yesterday i took a phentermine and that was a DREAM! i was absolutely NOT hungry and didn't fantasize about food. my day wasn't seemingly 18 hours long and i felt like i could do this diet until i'm done.

course i won't becuase i don't want to be on phentermine that long. i also cut out my fruit yesterday; i think that made a difference. i might not even eat fruit til i'm done i hate fruit anyway. last night i had a glorious breast with Joe's hot wing sauce...yum. i've been craving buffalo wings so that kinda helped. along with celery sans blue cheese : (

okay...off to my last day of work this week. tomorrow FURLOUGH FRIDAY AND THE START OF MY NEW JOB!!!

shit all to hell. SHIT ALL TO HELL

2009-08-12T05:29:00.001-07:00

i gained .6 pounds!!! My first real gain since i've been on this damn diet! yesterday was a weird day. i did ALL kinds of things differently. i chpped up an apple and ate that all day long, i had almond extract in my coffee (like 10 drops! come on!!!) i had an egg & 2 egg whites for dinner...so maybe all that just added up to...well, .6 pounds!

today I took 1/2 a phentermine. don't judge me! hahaha...actaully i love phentermine and as long as you're not on it for an extended period of time, i think it's okay. i'm just going to use it for the remainder of my time on HCG to help me not hate being hungry. and when i'm on phentermine
I
AM
NOT
HUNGRY.

and istn' that all we're looking for? also, today: no fruit. just lunch and dinner and lots of water. i have a weigh-in Thursday and i want to impress the ladies....actaully i just don't want them to tell me "hm. Hmmm...very odd....you havne't lost many inches at all! well, first case for everything!"

Day 18

2009-08-11T06:38:00.000-07:00

My posts are getting sporadic, as known, the more i hate this fucking diet.

Wait. to be fair, this diet IS a miracle. i shoudln't be so mean to it; but, can i tell you i'm sick of chicken & fish? I'm sick of black coffee and don't tell me about the Tablespoon of non-fat milk i can ahve becuase you need about a cup of that shit to even turn your coffee color!

I am terribly fantasizing about eating food. not even BAD food; but, hearty, creamy delicious food. i even researched where i can get good buffalo wings for my first lunch out. (hard rock...hate that place but whatever)

In the last 4 days, i've lost a total of ONE POUND! it's better when you say your total loss which is 15.4 pounds. i heard the girls on my support forum eat eggs so tonight might be an asparagus omelet night an di'm VERY much looking forward to that!

Day 16

2009-08-09T07:46:00.001-07:00

.2 pounds down. i ate strawberries for b'fast... i won't do that again. well maybe one more time becuase i bought a flat!

i made grilled ruffy and asparagus last night...burndt the SHIT out of the asparagus. they were sticks of charcoal but do you think that stopped me from eating them? Hell no. in fact, they were oddly similar to burndt potato chips so i was pretty happy!

i'm seriously fantasizing (sp?) about eating. yesterday i saw a Pringles commercial and i envisioned stacking like 15 and shoving them in my mouth. i even thought about buying some, shoving them in my mouth and just not swallowing. HELP ME! i've even planned my first normal meal already. i'm cleaning out my fridge to make room for tons of food. Really though, i'm more than halfway there so i can do this. and debby & megan saw me yesterday for the first time in two weeks and could totally see a difference so that's pretty encouraging. yay!

Day 15

2009-08-08T06:40:00.000-07:00

I didn't blog yestseday becuae i went to Red Hawk and i had only lost .2 pounds. but i won $180 bucks and lost 1.8 pounds.

i had a dream i ate a full breakfast. Pancakes, eggs, bacon, creamed coffee...i was so PISSED at myself for having to start over. hahahaha...but i didn't. and yesterday at the casino i must have drank 6 quarts of water. Probably why i lost so much.

I"m going to the store to buy some strawberries. i had the BEST dinner last night too...i sauteed shrimp in lemon juice & garlic, topped it with spinach and cilantro and covered pan to steam. yum - me.

day 13

2009-08-06T05:15:00.000-07:00

Lost the .2 i gained AND another pound. yay!!!

i actaully walked by my bathroom mirror and liked what i saw. unless i looked head on, but, from the side view? Yeah...that's comin along.

i'm getting majorly sick of black coffee...today i'm "sugaring" it to see if i can choke THAT down.

ohmygod

2009-08-05T05:03:00.000-07:00

up .2 pounds. do you know how devastating that is to see when you're STARVING!

evening:
today kinda sucked. i felt like shit this morning. felt a liiiiiiittle better after i ate an apple. was pretty hankering for normal food. i had to watch my friend eat a delicious panini roma sandwich. and i smelt for like 30 seconds a lemon poppy seed muffin. i could smell the butter.

that's what i'll eat when i'm on my somersize, a stick of butter. and a flat of cream cheese rolled in prosciutto. loaded with pickles. and mayonnaise. topped with sausage.

i cannot wait.

b: apple
L; chix cuke salad
d: snapper / caramelized onions.

lots of tea, water and a lemonade. i better have lost some weight tomorrow or jack in the box? here i come!

Day 11

2009-08-04T05:47:00.001-07:00

Meh. i lost .6 pounds. BUT it's better than nothing or gaining so i shouldn't be so disappointed.

but i am. it'd be AWESOME if i lost 20 pounds overnight. yeah...that's the ticket.

Day 10 - Goodbye 180's, goodbye 170's

2009-08-03T06:23:00.001-07:00

..cuz i ain'ts gonna see you no mo'!

down to 169.4 today. that's 11 pounds since I've started. It was mentioned to just continue right through til i lose my goal of 50#'s but i don't think i can do that. i'm already bored with the way i'm eating and i have 20 more days to go. the thought of going for another 2 months on 500 calories a day is too much.

but i am pleased with no drinking. I dont' even think about it nor want it. what i DO want is a feta, tomato omelet with sausage and a coffee with 1/2 cup of cream and sugar.

I've been doing yoga for the last 3 days too. GOD i'm so unflexible. when she says to fold over and put your head on the brick, i just bring the brick up to my forehead...makes me feel better. AND we get our 30 minute walks every morning...this is a pace an 80 year old could keep . good for me!

off to my black coffee....

Evening:

B: 1/2 grapefruit, 14 gallons of black coffee
L: white fish / delish
S: tomato soup
D: orange ginger chicken YUM!

i'm assuming this will be my one and only round of Releana. it's $340 a pop and since my metabolism is going to be reset, i can lose the remaining 20 on a low-carb diet.

today was the easiest day i've had so far on this diet. i was not hungry all day and i felt better. i still am more tired than usual but that's okay...i'm a sleeper. my life is better in my dreams...

Day 9

2009-08-02T06:56:00.000-07:00

I'm down 1.2 pounds! I was afraid to get on the scale this morning..i'm just not this lucky with weight loss. but, as i said yesterday, I followed the diet to the letter. my only fear was i think i had too much tomato, but it looks like that didnt' affect my weight loss. my ketostix is purple. i'm in MAJOR fat burning mode.

yesterday i didn't have much to do so i had quite a bit of food fantasies. i watched a horror movie where the girl went in to the food storoage to get peanut butter and ritz (yes she was killed there). all i was watching was the peanut butter being pulled off the shelf and the crackers strewn all over the floor.

then a jack in teh box commercial came on. they have a new special: coke, fries, cheeseburger and a taco for $2.99. i was daydreaming about that as i drove to rite aid to buy oil-free shampoo & soap and decide I would just imagine eating them. it kinda worked! I could feel the soft warm bun on my teeth and the salty cheese mixing with the disgusting patty, then i shoved 10 hot fries in my mouth, chewed for a while and washed it down with coke. then i put hot sauce on my crunchy taco and mow on THT for a while. i was pretty full when i was done!

instead:

B: 1/2 grapefruit
L: asparagus & white fish
D: tomato soup & chicken

LOTS of black coffee and LOTS of iced tea and about 20,000 cigarettes.

i blogged this wrong. this was supposed to go on day 8 but eh...who cares? today will be just like yesterday which was just like the day before. there's not too much authorism in 500 calorie diets.

boring night post:

b: nothing
l: chicken / cucumber
d: steak / tomato

Day 8

2009-08-01T09:07:00.000-07:00

down .6 pounds. not great but definitely better that UP .6 pounds.

I bought a book called HCG Weight Loss Cure Guide by Linda Prinster and it is VERY helpful with the details of this diet. I realized I'm doing a few things that could be causing my weight loss to slow down such as using shampoo with naughty ingredietns, hand lotion and eating broccoli and zucchini. weird, I know and i still am losing; however, how much WOULD i be losing if i followed the diet to the letter? So today, i'm following the diet to the letter becuase if i'm going to starve, i should at least be doing it right.

i'm glad it's saturday. i wish i could take the entire month off from work while i do this...it would be so much easier. it's harder to be hungry at work than it is at home. at home i can watch a movie, take a nap, sit in the hot tub, take my dogs to the park, etc., but at work, well...i'm sure you understand.

Today is chore day. i'm a bit depressed and miss my beer while i clean but it's all for the good. and when i'm finally done with this diet (probably by end of October) i can eat & drink whatever the hell i want (within reason, of course).

Day 7

2009-07-31T05:35:00.001-07:00

Morning:
Didn't lose an ounce over night but that's okay...I"ve noticed a lot of HCG'rs get really upset when they don't lose any weight; but, don't forget...that's what they say in the instructinos...you lose, you plateau, you lose, you plateau. besides i lost 3.2 pounds the night before so i'm still doin okay. AND i feel veeeeeeeery thin. My ketostix is dead purple so i am still burning fat.

This will be my first weekend in a while that i haven't drank. I'm not in the mood too either. I do smoke a cigarette or two daily becuase I just HAVE to be a bit of james dean every day...i'm not a good Natalie Wood. (for you ; )

Taking the dogs for a walk after my DELICIOUS black coffee...will update tonight, as usual. hey! i'm one week down. only two more to go!!! Yay for me!

Evening:
B - 1/2 grapefruit
L - chicken
S - broccoli
D - chicken & heirloom tomato

It looks like i'm eating a bit under 500 calories but they said that wa sokay. today i was a bit flighty and stupid and felt pretty ragged. all i can say is i was glad it was Friday so i have the weekend to regain my wits. I think i'm just at that point where your body rebels against only eating 18 ounces of food and drinking no alcohol.

Tonight is an on-the-couch night and i hope tomorrow i will have lost some weight and feel better. I'm sticking to this no matter what. it's my last hope.

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOA!!!

2009-07-30T05:33:00.000-07:00

I'll blog later this evening about Day 6 but i HAD TO POST THAT I LOST 3.2 POUNDS!!! That makes a total of 8 pounds so far in 6 days. i can live with that....and another thing about this diet is you lose inches mostly. when i'm not losing actual weight off the scale, i will still be losing inches.

will post later! off to enjoy a hot cup of black coffee...mmm...

Later:

Today was not a bad day, hunger-wise. I have been having tiny bouts of nausea throughout the VLCD but tnoight was probably the worst...even got a little watery mouthed but it passed.

B - apple (1/3rd rotten)
L - White fish
S - Cauliflower in a mustard/liquid amino sauce (tastes like soy sauce)
D - steak & broccoli

I've learned to split up my lunch becuase going so long in between meals is too hard for me. So after my fruit, i wait 3 hours and have my protein, then wait 3 hours and have my veggie...that's absolutely perfect. for dinner i eat both my protein and veggies becuase i can handle being hungry at home. i cannot handle it at work. besides i usually go to bed 3 hours after dinner so i'm good to go!!

all servings i post (besides fruit) is 3.5 ounces. I had a big LaBou tea today and was craving a grilled cheese. I did a bit more research and discovered i only have to be on this part of the diet for 3 weeks, then 3 more days of VLCD and then I'll be on Suzanne Somers for 3 more weeks and back on Square 1 until i lose my 50#'s i set out to lose.

When you write it out in black & white, it doesn't seem so impossible.

Day 1, 2, 3, 4 & 5 - HCG Journal

2009-07-29T17:43:00.000-07:00

Total weight loss since i started: 4.8 pounds.

When i heard of this diet, my first question was "can you drink?" as soon as i got the "no" i poo poo'd this diet as NOT for me. But after my last day of being totally frustrated at not being able to lose weight, I decided to give it a go.

Days 1 and 2 were amazing and my most favoritest days of my life. I was told by the weight loss clinic to eat as much high-fat, high calorie food as i can. I ate ice cream, chips & dip, french fries, pizza, beer, fat milk...oh you name it. i found it. I'm not sure why you have to do this during the diet but you're also taking the HCG hormone WHILE eating like a little piggy.

(For more info on HCG, click HERE)

Days 3, 4 & 5 were the beginning of the Very Low Calorie Diet (VLCD). VLCD translates to 500 calories a day. The other reason i balked. But this diet is giving me so much hope, I just have to try it.

the first day (well, day 3) i had an apple for b'fast, 3.5 ounces of chicken and 3.5 ounce of cabbage. for dinner i had 3.5 ounces of steak and 3.5 ounces of broccoli.

Day 4 I had 1/2 grapefruit, 3.5 ounces of white fish, 3.5 ounces of cabbage (yes, again...there's NOT much variety to this diet and it's best not to try to figure out some variety - I jsut try to remember it's only for 30 days. i certainly can DRINK for 30 days straight so come on!)

today, I had 1/2 grapefruit, 3.5 ounces of chicken & 3.5 ounces of raw cucumber. Dinner was 3.5 ounces of white fish and 3.5 ounces of zucchini.

I've been pretty hungry but not anything insurmountable. I try to remember that i've allowed myself to get to this point in my weight by being so free with food & drink. Now it's time for payback.

I can't have cream. I"m allowed 1 tablespoon of milk a day . give me a break. so i'm learning how to enjoy black coffee and it's not too bad. what's GREAT about this diet is you get so little, even a half a grapefruit is paradise.

I think i'm to be on the VLCD for 30 days and from here on out, i'll be posting daily. And if Kody thinks he's getting one bite of my meal, he can dream on.

And here's the outfit i'll be wearing when i'm done this whole deal...